Thoughts on race
So... I am a jew.
I just found out this fact 5 days ago, while driving back from East Texas. I guess the first question someone might ask is "how the fuck did you just find this out?"
Apparently, my great-grandmother was full jewish. At some time, she converted to the Protestant faith and her family didn't take it well. They decided to not talk to her at all and basically, kicked her out of the family. So it was her secret.
My great-grandmother had my grandmother who had my mother who had me.
I am a jew.
What does it mean?
I don't know, to be honest. All my life I have watched my friends ( 99% of them are hispanic) and wished that I had that sort of connection to something greater than I. But I have always felt like a mutt. What does that connection mean? Again, I don't know. I want to understand my culture so much more. I want to embrace my jewishness. At some level, I have already begun. I used to make racist jokes about every race, including jews. No more. A friend of mine once told me that white people are rarely bothered by racism because, for the most part, it doesn't affect them. I agree.
And I think, when I was convinced that I was a white mutt, I was exactly that way. Racism was a non issue for me, at least as an offending issue. It didn't bother me, as long as it was applied in jokes. Don't get me wrong. Racism is distrubing when it is used to make people's lives miserable. But I always felt like it was amusing when applied to make light of racial generalities. But...
I am a mutt no more.
I just found out this fact 5 days ago, while driving back from East Texas. I guess the first question someone might ask is "how the fuck did you just find this out?"
Apparently, my great-grandmother was full jewish. At some time, she converted to the Protestant faith and her family didn't take it well. They decided to not talk to her at all and basically, kicked her out of the family. So it was her secret.
My great-grandmother had my grandmother who had my mother who had me.
I am a jew.
What does it mean?
I don't know, to be honest. All my life I have watched my friends ( 99% of them are hispanic) and wished that I had that sort of connection to something greater than I. But I have always felt like a mutt. What does that connection mean? Again, I don't know. I want to understand my culture so much more. I want to embrace my jewishness. At some level, I have already begun. I used to make racist jokes about every race, including jews. No more. A friend of mine once told me that white people are rarely bothered by racism because, for the most part, it doesn't affect them. I agree.
And I think, when I was convinced that I was a white mutt, I was exactly that way. Racism was a non issue for me, at least as an offending issue. It didn't bother me, as long as it was applied in jokes. Don't get me wrong. Racism is distrubing when it is used to make people's lives miserable. But I always felt like it was amusing when applied to make light of racial generalities. But...
I am a mutt no more.
I'm really happy you aren't a mutt anymore. I think your excitement over this is something some people will not understand. Though you shouldn't tolerate their ignorance, remember to take it with a grain of salt. Some people have and always be too stupid. I'm glad you came out tonight. Love you Dan.
-Jess
Posted by
Anonymous |
2:58 AM
"always will be too stupid"
apparently, me.
-j
Posted by
Anonymous |
3:01 AM
ah, we always will mistype madame. it is the nature of blogging.
Posted by
WDV |
7:18 AM
Does this mean you won't be funny anymore?
Posted by
rwmonty |
3:20 PM
you're still a mutt. just a jewish one.
speaking as a mutt, i am ashamed that you would turn your back on the very process that makes all gene pools stronger and more resilient. you're not gonna get all nazi about this, are you?
hey, you can come collect racial slurs with me! i gotta million of them!
--her little wickedness
Posted by
Anonymous |
7:07 PM
monty, not sure i was ever funny.
Posted by
WDV |
10:35 AM
Sounds like a "yes".
Posted by
rwmonty |
8:11 PM